Its asking me for a post title, but I don't have a catchy, clever post title.  So I just left it blank.  This post isn't about my kids, or our sometimes hectic,  rarely boring days.  Its about what's on my HEART.  I am a Christian.  Thank God for that.  I don't consider myself to be a new Christian.  I have always believed in God.   I did not grow in a religious family, I certainly did not go to church every Sunday.  But my wonderful (pretty much) single parent mother, instilled in me at an early age, about our Savior.  I can remember praying (sometimes) as a little girl. 

• Lord, please let me get that BIKE
• Lord, please (oh, pretty please) can I spend the night at her house.
• GOD, I JUST WANT THAT BIKE!

Always with an AMEN and sometimes with an A(w)Men, and rarely with a Thank You.  I was baptized in college at Grace Bible Church, on the corner of North University and Raguet St. I loved the fellowship and well, the dinners they had on Sunday.  The elders were so sweet and they LOVED on me.  The hunger has ALWAYS been there.  It wasn't until the last few years of my life has that hunger turned into a insatiable appetite.  My husband and I, have been through the ringer.  Events have plagued us that have completely tested our marriage and ourselves as individuals.  Some of these events we are still dealing with, and will deal with for years to come.  I never knew the way out.  I always felt like if I had control over any situation (and let's face it, there is NEVER total control) then eventually it would work itself out.  I have been on a journey in the last year or so, REALLY and I mean REALLY working on my heart and my relationship with God.  I still stumble..daily.  I had always wondered if I prayed correctly.  I often thought and looked for that obvious answer.  Really, I did..sometimes I expected a puff of smoke and BAM there is THAT BIKE.  When you hear the saying "The Lord works in mysterious ways.", its because He really does.  I no longer have that voice in my head, but I have His word on my heart.  I still can't quote a verse directly, and there are stories of in the Bible that I don't know (I'm learning).  But, I know that if I pray and listen and love that all the others things I thought I needed as a Christian, I really don't.  I am accepted for who I am.  I am naive, I am so forgetful.  I have tons of confidence on the outside, but on the inside and I am always picking up the pieces.   I am silly.  I say things at the wrong time...I almost always laugh at things I shouldn't.  I could list things all day.  Most importantly though HE LOVES ME.  He made me how He wanted.  I have learned to give Him  Thanks.  I love this journey, and I pray I will always have this hunger.  I long to His face,  and be in His presence.